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I know I've said before that I'm not happy here, but I'm really depressed here... 8 years of depression... Never feeling like I could be me... or be free to explore anything.... Always having being forced down... Not good enough... Tricked, lied to, cheated... No friends, no brothers... No one to save me or help me... to hang with and share my interests... All because I tried to do to much and now I don't know who I am... and what I've done defines me, but I've done nothing significant... So, again I am left undefined and useless...

Mad World-Gary Jules


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Work Two Jobs

Recently, I we were drunk at a party and I was pulled to the side. A drunkard was seriously trying to have a deep conversation with me... Although, I'll be the first to admit I've had some deep conversations when I've been fucked up but, the midst of a party was not the time for said conversation... However, I listened anyway. This person intrigued me, I was ready to hear what he had to say. He told me, whatever you do in life "work two jobs."

I know crazy right, but for some reason at that moment in time, on that night of inebriation the advice of a drunk man never sounded so good. There was nothing particularly wrong with this person. He was young (29, mostly) and successful. He then went on to explain why I should work two jobs.

"The first job that you work should just support you for whatever it is that you want to do in life. What you want to do in life should be your second job. Now, when you get to point where you can switch over and make your second job your first job, do it. Then find another job..." Why find another job you ask? You remember all those childhood dreams of different jobs and careers. Well, one can bring most of them to life... just by working two jobs... Once your second job becomes your first, you can get another second job to do the other thing you wanted to do in your life. You may not always be happy, but someday you'll be able to say you did what you wanted to do in your life.

Harder, Better, Faster, Stronger-Daft Punk

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Music Defines Life...Hopefully

Now that I have started to define the music I like and have allowed myself to absorb just the genres that really interest me, I have found that the songs are taking on more and meaning. They used to strictly be just critiques and I felt lost in a search to define what "good music" is. The search is not over, but I'm also not worried about it anymore... No longer am I a third person bystander. Hopefully, this change in thought will carry over to other aspects of my life.

Still no job, this is miserable and I know at this point whatever shit cook job that I get, in order to get through it, I'll have to constantly remind myself that I'm doing this for the things that are important to me in life... TKE, Volleyball, School, Money, Music.

I know that with this job a depression will come like NO other. Like a said, those things will have to remind me... And I have to keep in mind that I could be sitting at home with my dad mad at me. Further more, this will be good to add as a reference for next summer. This is what has to be done to get what I want though...

Mary Jane-Collie Buddz


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JOB

If I don't find a job, I might DIE! Oh well, as it were, I have no friends, no job, no money, no life...

I'm a sophomore in college. I should probably stop now... I'm starting to get down again.

I have to do these things...

Get a job
Practice my bass
read
get stronger
practice volleyball

Blind to You-Collie Buddz


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It Never Ends, But It Did

...It happens all the time... No rhyme or reason... I guess I always have to just deal. It sucks that when it happens I have no to talk to...

Nothings the same... TIme... HUH. I always knew it would happen, just didn't expect it.

I miss TKE, but I wonder how long these friends will last... You make plans and everything, but you never really know.

I'm Yours- Jason Mraz

No more movies, just books... Harry Potter series first...


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To Rock or Not To Rock?

Upon further review, I think I've finally decided that Hip-Hop as a genre of music is not among my favorites. Not to discount or discredit a very essential area of music necessary to the development of techno/house and the foundation of a whole urban culture, but that whole urban culture was never something I was into in the first place. Beside, the next song to "shake ya ass" to has no with standing presence in the history of music.

Classical serves as a strong tonal basis for any music that contains discernible chord progressions.

All music of the Sixties, it still holds strong and people still listen to and make known these different songs. There may have been a few one hit wonders, but that one hit was all they needed.

Classic Rock... Need I say more

Alternative Rock, this area for me is largely encompassing. Ranging from the first outbreak of punk rock to the development of Indie Rock(as a genre).

Hip-Hop just holds no ground to any of this music... The only artist with any holding that will last in the future Jay-Z, Eminem, and Master P. Rap and Hip-Hop turned from a passing trend into a way of life that is fast and loose, much like the theme of most of the songs.

I'm not going to start hating or not listening to hip-hop or rap, but I will no longer claim it as specific genre of music that I find has any with standing songs(especially in 2008), worth downloading.

Musics evolution may have come to an end, but a new sound will soon be found by looking to musics roots...

Classical hip-hop and rock fusion is the future, most people just don't know it yet.

Fight Club

The Sixties-Artists of the Sixties


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